Eating because you feel something boiling in you, but you're not quite sure what, so you eat to forget about it.
Eating because 'I'll start tomorrow'.
Becoming a mum of two and running a business has taken its toll on me over the past year. And to deal with all the stress, happiness, anger, frustration, success, and overwhelm, I had two vices: chocolate and plain potato chips. Two completely ok things to eat, but not when you're eating them for all the wrong reasons.
I was doing it to reward myself, to say 'hey, you've had a hard day, you deserve this' or 'eat, it will help you to relax'. Boy was I barking up the wrong tree there! Eating too much of these things was doing the opposite, it was draining me of energy because it was buggering my blood sugar levels as well as feeding the wrong bacteria in my gut which was affecting my thinking and ability to deal with all the things going on in my life. And, it was causing me to not actually look after myself, even though I thought I was 'looking after myself' by treating myself.
What I really needed was time on my own in the fresh air, time to have a shower at my own pace (not dictated by a little person screaming at me to get them up or get them their 3 course breakfast), time with my friends to take my mind off what was going on in my life and delve into theirs, or time to read a book uninterrupted. Food was not the answer, but it was the easiest thing for my muddled head to do until I could pull myself out and back on to the path I needed to be on.
I'm happy to say that over the last 4 weeks I feel a hell of a lot more in touch with what I actually need and what my body needs. I'm still not 100% there, but I don't think anyone ever is...and that's not a bad thing. What I was doing wasn't a bad thing either, it helped me to realise what I wanted to change (should and want have two very different meanings, hence why I didn't use should).
When I actually think about it, I have gone through the above process every year for quite some time now, and each time I pull myself back on track, I feel that I'm better than before. It just goes to show that even as a Nutritionist, I am not immune to losing touch with being mindful and listening to my body. We need to fall in and out of alignment, it's what makes us really think about what we want and helps us become more in touch with our body.
Does my experience sound similar to your own? I'd love to hear your story and what works for you in the comments below.